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Monday, 21 July 2008

Finally back on this thing <3

Saturday, 27 October 2007

Aww, look at us!! These pictures were taken on Wednesdayyyyy, October 17th!

And These pictures were taken on Thursday, October 18th!

Saturday, 20 October 2007

So yesterday, Kam basically told me that it was really over between us. I need to get over it. I'm not going to elaborate on this because there's no need to. I know what he said and I'm the only person obligated to know this. So I pretty much cried myself to sleep, nothing new there. I'm always crying myself to sleep, I think it's become a habit .. a bad one at that. I had a bad dream, something about me getting upset over Kam, of course. He was getting girls from left to right and totally forgot about me or some crap like that and he was doing it all in my face ... and he had said before "I'd fuck a bitch in front of your face just to show you I DON'T CARE ANYMORE" .. so is that what my dream is telling me? That he doesn't care anymore??? Huyyy, it's okay. One of us has to move on and the other will soon follow, because it's a monkey-see, monkey-do world. It was 6am, and I was crying .. fell back asleep and woke up because grandma is so annoying and has to come in my room and be all loud and obnoxious. I came to check my laptop and Kam had IMed me claiming I was talking to Kitna and that he has his "411" .. HA! .. whatever. Tell his 411 to shut the fuck up and keep my name and business out of their mouth. I was crying all over again. All overwhelmed, all angry, all sad all over again. A crying festival, I tell you! SO GAY! .. ughhh. I don't want to do anything for the rest of the day ... FUCK THAT.

Thursday, 18 October 2007

Umm, I just went on a little shopping spree. Damn this Victoria Secret card! HAHA. I can't wait for my check to come in tomorrow! I need to pay off all my debt so I can be stress freeeee. Damn, I'm gona be pretty much BROKE this weekend, great! And I have to wait another 2 weeks until I get another check ... UGH.
Kass, Claire, and I took pics yesterday and today .. soooooo those will be up soon! I can't wait to see them! They're cute, lol. Ummm. I think I should get a facebook or something! Or maybe bring back myspace? Ugh, I just want a place where I can put pictures up and keep in contact with the world, GOD!
Here are pics that we took on Monday! Mannnn, we're on a roll! ... yep. You're damn right we're COOL. lol

From left to right: Claire & I; Kassie & I
OH! I went to see the boy Tuesday morning, the usual. And I stayed with him until he had to go work because I didn't feel like going to sociology and Kassie didn't either. So yep. We took pictures.
hahaha, I forgot how much I loved the smileys on Xanga. They're friggin' awesome..
Here's one thing that's NOT awesome ... succeeded in failing my sociology exam today ..
Isn't the first year of college supposed to be the easiest??? .. Well, I've thrown that theory out of the window ... pft. I need to try harder. I need to do good! So much for going to medical school ... huyyy.
Well here are the pics because I don't feel like typing anymore.
-- Aww! I like this pic! ... oh, don't mind his tongue.
-- Heyyyy, I look cute. HAHAH! Damn ... his friggin' eyes are glued onto that chick on tv .... bitch.
-- Oooh yeahhhh, now that's what I'm talking about ... KISSS, KISSS, KISSS MEEEEE

Saturday, 13 October 2007

I went to see the boy today. When I got there .. he wasn't even home. So much for having a bad dream, he's all out and about now. Whatever, at least I got to see him. We had some alone time too! More than I expected because he was gathering up the boys @ his house. But yeah, we did our thing, watched some tv, cuddled together, and I did some reading while he was watching tv, lol. Cute, I know. I miss him ... he's out now, he has real business to handle. That scares me a little, but .. I know he'll be fine, hopefully. I haven't heard from him since I left his house .. it was kind of a slap in the face the way I ended the night, hmph. He's really done dealing with my shit.
I came home and talked to Rosie for the rest of the night. We had a very good conversation! And I can relate to everything she's going thru, well most of everything. I like how I can talk to someone about things now and really have them understand where I'm coming from! Since the whole Kassie/Claire breakout .. I don't really want to bother bringing up the issues I have.
I'm really tired all of a sudden.. I want to go to bed, but I gota wait until 12 to make sure that Nang gets home safe and before curfew! I don't want to hear any more bitching from Kam or his mom. I don't think I have anything interesting to talk about for 30 minutes while I wait, so I'll just get a jumpstart on tucking myself into bed and getting comfy, lol. Hopefully, I don't fall asleep before 12!